What do you bring to the table? (YES I DID REWRITE THIS AND YES YOU WILL READ IT)

 



Hey Sunshine!

A new month is upon us and I cannot help but be filled with a sense of joy and peace. I have so many new things to talk about. I am about to get into a rage filled word vomit of all the things that have been bothering me As I sip on my hazelnut coffee and listen to Hozier I just feel the sense of clarity that makes me see things in a different light. A light that I was not able to feel or attain a few months ago but this new found clarity is intriguing.

IS THIS CALLED GROWTH? IS THIS WHAT FRONTAL LOBE DEVELOPMENT FEELS LIKE? Because I love it!

Ok first things first. This may or may not offend people but I live for the drama. Why are people emotionally underdeveloped? It is giving caveman brain and it is quite frustrating. You cannot physically keep calling yourself masculine/feminine without having the qualities to back it up. Some people are just so caught up with being this ‘victim’ it is so frustrating to even hold a conversation without them completely ruining it by talking about their pain.

Pain is inevitable, the past cannot be changed and the future cannot be acquired, change is the only underlying constant. The quicker you realize that the easier it is to let go and change. You cannot transform to a butterfly if you are still stuck to chewing on your leaf. Healing is never linear and it is not the same for everyone. BUT HEAL! You cannot keep dwelling on the pain, make it your personality and hold onto it. That is where the complete emotionally underdeveloped nature shows. Dealing with emotions is not the issue, it is the recovery and growth that hurts the most, I empathize but you have to give your self the space to heal.

The second thing, this question ‘WELL WHAT DO YOU BRING TO THE TABLE’. Sir you don’t have a table. We should start the question there. But no, not to justify but I have realized my worth, my qualities, strengths, and my weakness’. Just because you have had experiences where your table was flooded with rotten fruit or had a broken leg and you cannot accommodate me at your table, does not bring into question what I bring to the table. I can happily find a table that will accommodate me and make all the space for me. That is my revelation, do not settle for the crumbs or the bare minimum. THERE IS BETTER, THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING BETTER. People may think they are settling for you but no offence, you are just enough and way more for the right person. ALSO the more you keep looking for better, the more you loose yourself. Satisfaction is an acquired skill, greed is rampant. THE whole world runs on the concept of feed your greed, they say they are satisfying you but in reality they are making you greedier by the day. 

With valentines around the corner and if you are single do not worry, life is so much better when you are at peace and happy with yourself. Life is too short to be bothered with the past and too full to not think about the future. This goes out to not just relationships but also friendships etc. You know that gut feeling you get? When a relationship starts giving you the ick. Trust that feeling. Move away, take your time, analyse, learn, take the good and the bad. Break, forge, heal and move on.

Change is always inevitable. With the inflation, ad taxation, please just focus on yourself and try to save more money. While you are at it, give me tips on how to save as well.

Lots of love and gyaan

-         XOXO

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