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My Dearest Sunshine!

It has been a month since I have written to you, how are you my dearest? How were the rains in your area? Wow time does fly huh.

A lot has happened in the span of a month, I have learnt so much, gained so much, lost a bit but overall, it’s been a great month. I have learnt this month to be grateful for everything I have and cherish in life. It has been a humbling experience to take a step back and breathe and look at the bigger picture. I realized I had been stressing over all the tiny details so much that I missed what the bigger picture looked like.

Work has been extremely rewarding, six months of hard work finally paid off. I was able to launch LEAD. A project that I had spent many a sleepless night over, yet it has been truly enjoyable to work with different people and bring to fruition something that was just a running idea in my mind. I feel that is the biggest lesson I have learnt, focussing on those ideas working on them putting effort and energy and giving an idea life – that has been my biggest take away.

I remember saying celebrate your wins, no matter how small. Celebrate your losses too. Try doing it alone. You read that right, celebrate your wins alone. That was my biggest blow. To do something, you look around and there is no one to celebrate with you, wow that was a punch to my gut but I also realized I needed that. To completely be there for myself, independent of man, dependent on God. Everything I have achieved and done all of it is directly tied to the grace that God has given and the strength that he blesses me with to carry through.

I am extremely satisfied and fulfilled, something that would surprise my regular reader but I am completely at peace with myself. Worry gets you nowhere, all you need to do is work at it, things do change for the better. Patience is a virtue and rest is only for the wicked. Focus on yourself, enjoy every moment you get. Don’t hold yourself to a standard that someone else has. Measure yourself with your own integrity and hold yourself to it. Sometimes wearing blinders help. Sticking to your lane and not comparing yourself to someone else is a very hard thing to do, especially in this day and age where everyone seems to be on a fast track to life. Hustling is good, but at what cost? At the cost of your health? Your mind? Your body? Staying true to your word and doing what is required of you is more than enough to feel fulfilled. Don’t force yourself into a spiral by overthinking an worrying about things you cannot change.

Focus on the quieter moments, the rain, the breeze, good coffee, even better masala tea and food. Cherish the time you spend with family and the people you love. This past month has been a rollercoaster of red alerts and more, all I could think of was spending more time with family. Sigh, I have yapped a lot, haven’t I? On that note, I have missed you so much my Sunshine, I really hope and pray that things are well with you. Do meet me soon, I would love to spend time with you and bask in your warmth and love.

 

XOXO

Jess.