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My dearest ball of sunshine!

Thank you so much for waiting patiently, its nearly been a month since I last wrote to you. I hope you are doing alright. How has your health been? Mentally and physically? How are things going on? I really have missed you, Sunshine.

          To give you an update of how things have been, well it’s pretty much been the same, but it has also been different. The past month lead me to have a few revelations that I really enjoyed reveling in. Monotony yields consistency. What you may consider as boring and monotonous is really you consistently working on something, are you going to see immediate results? You may or may not, but that does not mean the effort goes in vain. The whole universe rests very gently on the concept of balance. In your 20s everything is more prone to haywire and chaos. Finding that connection and balance is what elevates your living.

          The other thing I learnt was the brevity of things. I have spoken about this before, but a lot of things in this life are just brief moments in time. It seems huge and mammoth one moment, the next its just gone, moved over and gone. Don’t dwell on things, things that you cannot change. When you take some time off to really reflect the trajectory of your life, you realize the unseemly nature of somethings that really mattered to you once. I would never say that about you though Sunshine. This, us, this is a permanent thing. I will always be there.

          As someone who is always there, or if you are someone who is always there for others, the giver, the funny one, the ‘can count on’ person. It is easy for people to forget you. Look at our mothers, they give and give and give and they are so easily forgotten. The universe sees everything, and in the mystical circle of life what really goes up has to come down and what is down goes up. It may askew to the left or to the right but it does end up where it is supposed to be. If you are the giver, hey I see you, and I am sending you a warm hug and a big thank you for all the things you give and you are for others.

          I also wanted to remind you today, things you are healing from, the pain you feel now it will fade away. You will find love, in an unassuming place or it may be right where you are looking or it will just show up and knock. You are going to find the job that satisfies you and makes you happy. You are going to love yourself and feel better about all the things that now trouble you. All of what you feel now will grow, elevate, leave, and heal. Healing is never linear, monotony yields consistency and faith, well faith leaves only to grow into something better. Never loose sight at the end of that tunnel. The labyrinth may have been designed to be hard, but don’t forget to furnish your wings and fly.

                                              Never fly too close to the sun 

          I have really missed your warm embrace, Sunshine; I wish I could hold your hand and stare into your eyes and tell you that all you are doing now will always reap a lot of benefits later. You may or may not see me now. But I hope that someday you will realize that I was always around. Cheering you on and whispering prayers for you.

          Lots of love

          Jess.