Boundaries, Burger King and Butterflies

 


Hello Sunshine,

Its me again. How was your week? Mine was quite eventful. I took on new responsibilities at work, as rewarding as the prize seemed heavy is the head that wears the crown. Though in my case the crown is more of a replica of the one you get at Burger King.

The past week I realized a few things. Some childish, some m0re serious. I hope you have seen the movie ‘How to train your Dragon’? well I realized, Toothless aka the Dragon and Stitch from ‘Lilo & Stitch’ are kind of the same. Hear me out Sunshine, they have similar blueprints but different and varied executions.

The second realization I had was the brevity of relationships. Friendships, lovers, people you meet. Sometimes not everything has to last right sunshine? But the heart wants what it wants. Setting boundaries is a new thing for me. I’ve always been a people pleaser with people who I want to please, and most of the time that ends up with me overfilling the other person’s cup with unresolved memories and broke phrases and a never-ending playlist. I’ve also come to the conclusion that music is a key antidote in this road to healing. From piano ballads to intense hip-hop music has started to course through my veins freer than before.

Facing rejection and delving it out has always been a bit of a steep mountain for me to climb. Many a time I have ended up placing the feelings of a stranger, a friend, a family member before mine, chipping a bit more away at my own conscience and dignity. I’ve always believed in second chances, but sometimes second chances become gateways to other people taking advantage of the kindness you show them. I’ve also realized Sunshine, you can’t always be nice to people, always be sweet, have a kind word for everyone, and always be the sweetheart they want to keep around.

Life does get messy sometimes Sunshine, but I’m glad I have you. You bring a wonderful zest and zing to my somehow mundane days, and you make the music sound better. I thoroughly enjoy the moments we spend together through shared phone screens and multiple calls, coffee and comedy.

Well Saturday is closing in on us and soon Sunday will dawn with its pomp and languor. Yet all I long for is to spend listless days with you while I stare at my electronic screen and we share the silence.

Yours Lovingly

Peanutbutter & Jess.

PS: Dear reader, Sunshine isn’t anybody I know. Its somebody I hope to know and love someday, till then you get to be entertained with my whims and fancies and delulus.

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