Peanut butter and Jess

  My dearest Sunshine, How are you? I have missed you extremely these past few weeks. Dealing with loss is not really something I am good at. This past week has been a standing testament to that. You might be aware that my grandmother and I never had a smooth relationship. I do miss her, regardless of how rocky that bridge was. I took some time writing to you as I needed space to process how I felt. These last few weeks have been relatively slow, boring and sleep deprived. From constantly running around last week and finding peace at the cemetery, this has been an interesting turn of events. A few things I have learnt and realized this past week is to have unwavering faith in yourself. Despite the challenges that life oh so lovingly throws at you, never forget the faith and the fight. As someone who has constantly struggled with loss, failure, forgetfulness and regret. All I can say is, fight the good fight. Keep the faith. I may have lifted these words from the Bible, yet ...

  Hey Sunshine How are you? Was this week kind to you? Did you get to dress up for Halloween? I hope you had fun this week! I really miss you Sunshine, especially with Chennai’s changing weather and the rains that oh so frequent a cool weather. I do feel a pang of missing my warm and glowy Sunshine. This week was filled with a few wins and a lot of losses. I had a much-needed intervention with a friend about consistent choices that have rendered me exhausted. Though I thoroughly agree that these are the consequences of my own actions, I am still allowed to complain right? Have you heard the term ‘I love the chase’ well subconsciously I embody that. I just adore the chase, and I live for the high. Every time I consistently set myself up for failure, then I hopelessly complain about how much life drains me. But the dating game isn’t something I’m particularly good at. (Readers who are my family, I exercise extreme caution here while I type this out, I am my father’s daughter....